THOUGHT thinking itself thinking

Forgiveness. Seems like such an easy thing to do… Only, it’s not. Especially, when one experiences THINGS/EVENTS far, far, far beyond his/her level of mental/emotional tolerance and is being pushed not just over the proverbial edge, but sent into zones where you feel like your soul is breaking, like your entire being is being shattered into millions of tiny bits. (Talking from experience here.) What to do then? What do you do, when you don’t think it’s possible to forgive others (or/and yourself), because that space doesn’t exist inside you? What then? How do you put yourself back together and create that space of forgiveness? How do you forgive when you don’t want to, anymore?